Wanting More

The world of addiction whether it be sex, drugs, alcohol or some other form of addiction can leave us feeling hopeless, helpless, cut off, shut out, disregarded, unwanted, unworthy of love, less than human, and spiritually sick. It sucks the life right out of us until we can no longer see the light at the end of the tunnel. It does not have to be this way. For those who find themselves in that situation this article is for you. Please read carefully, be prayerful, and know that no matter who you are, what you have done, or what you feel, God loves you and I am sure others do to. We can not give up hope for a better life. It is not impossible to achieve, I heard a line in a song once that said, impossible is a reason not to try. We need to understand that there is a better life just waiting to be had we just have to want more than what we have. Anything is better than an addictive lifestyle, it is not rocket science. But you need to know you are worth it and any other line of thinking is Satan running a head game on you, don't buy it. God did not put us on this Earth to be an addict and that's it. No He has so much more in mind for us. In this life we may have become a person with an addictive lifestyle but a lifestyle can be changed and people can be changed. Just don't give up hope or think you are not worthy of change. Once you do that then you do feel worthless and what is your incentive to try?

Let me share with you an example from my life. I cried out and felt at that hopeless stage. I had only two choices to make and that was it. Continue to be an addiction and all that goes with it, divorced, my life revolving around work, beer, porn and whatever cheap sex that might come my way; until one day I faded out of the world leaving only my family knowing that I was missing from it. Or stop and beg for help and want more for myself.  I knew I could be more, I knew I wanted more, I also knew it would take work once I asked for help and change from God. Guess what I chose? Oh c'mon guess? Yes I chose to become alive in Christ and my life has not been the same ever since. You can have this transformation as well. Just want it. Satan wants us desperate so he can offer us the temporary things to feel better. He wants to pleasure us first and devour us last. God wants to work through our hurts and our pains first so they are not holding us back and then offer us the peace that comes along with a Godly, purposeful, focus driven life.


God can change us, make us better people and help us recover from our addictive lifestyle. I also have more good news! Christ knew we were worth it long before we were even born. He worried about our addictive life and staying productive. He did not want us to give in to this and just become another addict that world forget abouts.

These are His words on that: Matthew 5:13; Jesus said, "You are the salt of the Earth. But what good is salt if it has lost its flavor? Can you make it salty again? It will be thrown out and trampled underfoot as worthless".

I am not a theologian but that scripture tells me do not lose your zest for life, be productive, active and part of the world. Salt adds flavor to various kinds of foods, in the same turn we can add our own flavor to this world.Want what God has store in store for us, want the dreams you had or have, want the family life,  but most importantly want to be the person you feel yourself to be inside and bring that person out. Introduce yourself to the world as a person in recovery, not the addict who the world can care less about. I can not tell you how many stories I have heard in the world of recovery of people that testify to feeling useful, feeling like they contribute, having a better marriage that comes along with the honest living, and being able to have an open relationship with God. People that once resided themselves to just giving up because they did not know how to change. They may have always wanted more or knew they could be more but just didn't know how. Well here is what helped me, a hearts desire to let God into my life; honesty with myself, my wife and my family; looking at what the addiction has taken; and just plain deciding this is nuts!

It is ok to want more out of your life and try to achieve it, take the word impossible out of your vocabulary because absolutely nothing is impossible for God. He created the universe and everything that is in it, I think He can help us put down the magazine, turn off the computer and stay at home with our spouse for once. Don't let your salt lose it's flavor. Do not become worthless, and do not believe the lies Satan is filling our heads with. So besides wanting more, how about having more (of the good stuff that is)?

Father in Heaven, today our prayer is to be all that we can be. We are not our addiction, you know our worth because you made us. To often we have given up hope or stopped trying because we did not know how to be different. Fill our hearts with answers, desires, questions, and honesty. Father we do want to be more and we know that you are the answer and the enemy is the problem. Today we give our addiction to you and we ask you fill us with a sense of worth. Others who have recovered before us tell us this is possible and now we want to experience this for ourselves. We know that only can help us live. In the precious name of Jesus Christ we pray. Amen.

My prayers are with you. Jason.