Doin' Time

If you are sex addict of my type, perhaps your body and your mind have felt like they are holding your spirit prisoner. Paul said "that it is sin that lives within us that make us break the law" ( law being what God has set forth as good actions). But it is tough, I am not going to lie. I have had times where I just hate my body (one part specifically) because it is that part that has participated in some of my greatest sins. My mind gets to going and and my body reacts. Or my eyes see something or someone, that gets the mind going, that gets the body going and so on till I act out. Not that this process is unusual to anyone but it is what we do with it and how we feel afterward that causes the greatest squashing of the spirit within us.

Some sex addicts really detest parts of their body and oddly enough even though they hate that part, it is the one given the most attention to. For me it determined my loyalties at times, spent my money, got me less sleep, meals were not properly eaten on a regular basis, caused me to lie and manipulate. My mind was no more innocent for it caused the same thing and alot of times both of them worked together. My spirit was witnessing these things and longed for God but my mind and my body kept it away from him. (This is a very hard point to get across, so I hope I am making sense).

1Corinthians Chapter 12 speaks of the body. Verse 26 speaks directly to this point: "if one part suffers, all parts suffer with it. And if one part is honored all parts are glad." I think this is a very good illustration of the addictive process. When we feel wound and aroused, we seek to relieve ourselves because the feeling is to unbearable to manage. The mind and the body are suffering then. All things are not important except one, that is relief. We let our entire body suffer wether it be lack of sleep, hunger, pain or anything else. We need to act out. We do and all feels better. So you can see how this addiction to sex can stifle the spirit and all the good things God wants for us.

So in conclusion, let my personal testimony to this be this: "My spirit has felt chained up and trying to break free, while my mind and body mock it and humiliate it. God has brought me a cake with a file in it and my spirit is loosening its chains now." The God head, Father, Son and Spirit are working together and will work together with you to help us get free. Jesus lets us know that help is on the way.